I am still fighting with social security, I've had three surgeries in the last three months, and my depression has taken a wicked hold of me. My gallbladder somehow got super infected, to the point I was running a decent fever despite taking a high dose of prescription NSAIDs around the clock, which should eliminate any normal fevers. I suppose it was fortune or fate that I happened to be on them, because I was in the hospital for an unrelated matter, and a nurse completely brushed off my extreme pain and gave me an over-the-counter medication.
I might have gotten brain damage if I wasn't on my diclofenac, because who know how high the fever would have been untreated with me thinking that the pain was just something I needed to just bear through. I need to really press charges against Hellmont, this is the second time I have come from that place suffering physical harm from their lack of care.
My depression has really kept me from writing on here, and my back pain from using the computer. The pain has been so severe for several months, and it won't let up. I am at a loss as to what to do, and to top everything off my food stamps have gone from a nice $200 which is easy to work with at grocery stores, to $60. No joke. Seriously. I need to feed myself on $2 a day. Which means, no more V8, or fruit juices, or dried fruit-which helps me because of my back, or the organic milk I like, or a lot of other healthy things that cost a bit more...
Also it has come to my attention that rape is something that people, all of whom I have met have been male-with the exception of one female who was a victim I met five years ago, is not considered a "big deal". People need to get over it. It's "held high on some stupid pedestal for no reason where it doesn't belong, it's nothing", said someone in Ungodly Wrath, the WoW guild on the Stormrage server. He's not the only one who holds this sentiment, either. It seems a lot of people are just inconsiderate to the idea that it might actually harm people. That there are such things as rape victims. They seem to think that every person who claims it is just some liar or something.
So because of government and because of these people I am fasting. I will eat what I can on my foodstamps, and nothing else, unless on occasion someone chooses to assist the wellfare case that I am. I find it ironic because my best friend wanted exactly what's happened, the government not taking care of people. So now I will be eating a caloric intake that will probably be near starvation, which I've done before, and we will see how it goes. I hope that all those stupid men out there might ackowledge that rape happens, and not every girl lies, and maybe the government can help people afford food.
Oh, and also, you lose food stamps if you study more than 4 credits of college. So despite my back problems, even if I took several online classes, I would lose that little bit of money to eat. Heh.
